I don't know what to say except that I'm severely stressed and upset. I was doing so well since the beginning of the semester on the non-pessimism thing, but I'm back to my stressed pessimistic self.

Physics sucks. My teacher is a prick. In my best mockery voice of some sort: "here, do this lab report, but I won't tell you how to do it. But if you do it wrong, I'll yell at you guys. If you need help with it, come ask me about it." Hmm.... let's see, last time I did that, you belittled me and made me feel stupider than when I came in. You told me that I knew what you were talking about when I didn't... and then you called me a disaster. Yes, I'm gonna keep going back for more and more fun of the sort. And then for yesterday's lab, he just wrote vague instructions on the board that didn't really even tell you how to do the experiment and kind of explained it and then left. And I of course get the lab partner who thinks he knows what he's doing when he doesn't, the one who doesn't listen to his other lab partners even if they have a valid question that might even make a little sense. "Why did we write down the slit width if we're not using it in the equation?" I ask. "Good question." he responds and continues doing his wrong calculations. So I sat there and did nothing. You don't want my help or my opinion, fine. Well, it turns out that I was right because we needed that number. Had he listened to me, we probably would've been done sooner. So we got out of lab like 50 minutes late because of the combination of not having a decent teacher and an igorant lab partner who needed to shower because he smelled.... And when am I gonna use this junk again? Why do bio majors need to take Physics?! I bet Physics majors don't have to take biology! I'll never ever use this again. I don't care how my hair diffracts on laser. I DON'T CARE! And I don't care about lenses. Unless I plan on inventing contact lenses for dolphins, then this stuff is BS to me.

I can't imagine why I've been getting headaches lately...... I've had one 3 days in a row. On Tuesday, I thought my brain was literally going to force it's way out of my skull and land in my lap.

And I haven't had time to do much of anything. I've had so much homework to do and no time to do it. Turned in a biochem lab report without having any idea what I wrote and how it related to the question or the lab. I was in an "I don't care mood" yesterday. But seriously what kind of question is "Why would a casual observer think that he had the mental agility (yes, the lab book said agility, not ability....) of a small soap dish?" Wtf kind of question is that?!

Also, I haven't had time to study for my biochem test... which I had today. I failed. I guarantee it. Ever cry while taking a test? I have. My teacher actually came over and offered me kimwipes as tissues. She probably thought I just had a runny nose cuz I kept sniffling....

*sigh* I give up. I guess that's all I have to say for now. Not that anyone's gonna read this anyway.